Friday, February 18, 2011

Am I?

I’m enjoying the new-found freedom that being agnostic brings.  At least I THINK I’m agnostic.  Who knows - that is a part of the process I find very confusing!  It is such a strange feeling to have the guilt, fear, and pressure that I really didn’t even know was there - GONE. I’ve always been an out-of-the-box thinker, but I believe it’s only been recently that I’ve been a deep thinker.  Not sure if that makes much sense, but it is the only way I can explain why or how much I questioned stuff but never had enough cog dis to actually do anything about it.  Now that I am standing back and looking at my life, I realize how much subliminal discrimination existed.  Kinda sucks to come face-to-face with it, yet it feels good to be able to give myself a break and pat myself on the back for doing what I’ve done amid the confusion.  It almost gives me more energy and motivation to forge a new path somewhere I never imagined going or being before.

I don't have anywhere else to post my thoughts in relative obscurity, so... THIS will have to be the place.