OWE, I see.

As I am exposed more and more to situations where so much just DOESN'T go right for good people, I am becoming more and more aware of my wonderful set of circumstances.  But along with that recognition comes something I'm not sure I'm handling correctly  

I sort of feel like I "owe" something to someone/somewhere for the wonderful life I am able to live every day.  But, who do I owe, and what do I give?  My parents are some of the best people I have ever met.  My neighborhood is one of the safest places I've ever lived.  My children are all very happy and healthy and making great choices.  My wasband and I get along really well now.  My support group in real life, as well as on FB, is incredible!  I'm 2/3 finished with my master's degree and my internships are all lined up in wonderful places. 

I couldn't ask for more, but... I GOT MORE!  A house basically fell into my lap last night, so I offered (low-balled) and it got accepted within SIX hours!  It's is EXACTLY what I have been looking for for the last 2 years.  I knew it when I first stepped inside of it last night.  Perfect size, perfect location, perfect views, perfect everything!  It has the covered back patio facing the direction I like, a wide front patio/entry with views to die for, a beautiful office right off the entry way where I can eventually have clients when I get my private practice opened, it is 1 mile from Max's school, 7 houses away from my parents, and so much more.

Now what?  Do I claim, "I'm blessed," which gives the notion that he who blesses (as if...) chose me over others?  Do I attribute it to "the secret" because I had a fleeting thought 2 days ago about moving, since my lease is up soon?  Am I just lucky?  Should I feel guilty?  Obliged?  Entitled?  Did I earn this?  

I think I'll just pick "confused," and run with it.  

I'm also going to pick thrilled, ecstatic, and super happy, oh... and scorpion-less!